unwriting

just now i watched justin bieber's "baby" (click) mv on youtube. the song was pretty good.. but the video, sigh.
- the setting: "bowling alley", but i think that's their excuse for dim lighting and boys/girls standing around and flashy lights and smokey backgrounds and (non-alcoholic) drinking... you know, like a club for children
- scenes of the boys/girls groups separated by a bowling alley alternated with random forehead-to-forehead scences between jb and the main girl (how did he get over there) that usually ended with the girl pushing him away all "oh no you didn't"
- some boy shoved another for no reason and then they randomly broke into dance. those were some good breakdancers they filmed, but see? cluuubbbing
- (there was no story. the song is about what, past love? and this video was basically kids, CHILDREN, with too much make up and attitude flirting with each other)

not to sound like a prudey homeschool mom (another thing we learned in psychology would be not to stereotype / generalize, shrug), but sometimes the mainstream is dangerous. real life is probably not quite like this (yet), but media plays a part in constructing the 'standards' that people feel compelled to meet. and i think their influence is strongest over people who are too young to handle it? usually i think babies do awesome things, but this video (click again!) is kind of disconcerting at the same time. i hope he's an outlier.

so think real slow
don't forget that yes is yes and no is no
about the way you want to go
cause i may forget the way to get back home
this is the end if you want it
this is the end if you want it
and this is the end

i can't say i know how the melody goes for this song.

Wong, C. and Tam, K. (2010). This is totally what happens when you insensitively put nerdy and observational powers together. Done while procrastinating on January 25, 2010. A Similar display of asininity can be has'd on The P.Pole.

i can only imagine how future me will think of present me when she sees this.

inexplicable drowsiness at 11pm comics
lollipop not the korean song comics
violations of the independence assumption in the process dissociation procedure comics
how does that make me want to stay in psychology comics
NOBODY KNOWS THE TROUBLE WE'VE SEEN comics
shoutout for the dust-covered basicck comics
and
y, the last man
and why, comic heroines never wears anything that is not stretchy

the title says it all SUE ME so i like blabbering senselessly

"We live in a Post-Christian society. Therefore, not many of those writers will be Christians or adherents of any of the traditional faiths. Self-consciously Christian (or Jewish or Muslim) writing will be sectarian and tend to propaganda and therefore have very little to say to persons outside that particular faith community. The challenge for those of us who care about our faith and about a hurting world is to tell stories which will carry the words of grace and hope in their bones and sinews and not wear them like fancy dress."

"if I wasn't willing to risk mediocrity, I would never accomplish anything. There are simply no guarantees. It takes courage to lay your insides out for people to examine and sneer over. But that's the only way to give what is your unique gift to the world. I have often noted that it takes the thinnest skin in the world to be a writer, it takes the thickest to seek out publication. But both are needed—the extreme sensitivity and the hippo hide against criticism. Send your inner critic off on vacation and just write the way little children play. You can't be judge and creator at the same time."

-- Katherine Paterson, author of Bridge to Terabithia
and here is why she wrote the book in the first place

"the problem with speculation is you make spec out of 'u' and some guy named 'lation', which really doesn't affect me at all." - House

where is the like button in LIFE!
..and that's when i know i should lay off the facebook. i'm also writing something that's due in exactly 2 hours. i have 27 words! i'm crazy.

BUT NOW WE KNOW COMICS
UNEXPECTEDLY TERSE RESPONSES COMICS
SUDDEN OUTPOURING OF NOSTALGIA COMICS
WHAT IS THE DEAL WITH REFORMISTS COMICS
PERFECT YOUTUBE MATERIAL COMICS
SEXY ADVENTURES COMICS
BETTER THAN PERFECT COMICS
MOMENTS OF AUTO-DISCOVERY COMICS
GO CHECK YOUR RECORDS COMICS
SERIOUS MEDICAL CONDITION OR AWESOME EFFECTS OF AUTOEVOLUTION COMICS
TOTALLY TUMOUR'D COMICS
BAD EXCUSES COMICS
WAY TO JUSTIFY MALINTENTIONS COMICS
DRAMATIC EXTRAPOLATIONS COMICS
AND LOOK HOW THAT TURNED OUT COMICS
EXPLAIN YOUR UNFILTERED WAYS COMICS
MOMENTARY LAPSES OF JUDGEMENT COMICS
SUDDEN CHANGES OF MOOD COMICS
IT'S A LOSE-LOSE SITUATION COMICS
THE UNIVERSE WHERE NO ONE WINS COMICS
NOT AGAIN COMICS
NOT IF YOU WERE ME AND (name) WAS (another name*)... THAT WOULD BE MOST WELCOME COMICS
EMBARRASSING LIFE-MOMENTS COMICS
POSSIBLE MASSIVE INTERNAL HEMORRHAGING COMICS
MOMENTS OF REVERSED GENDER-ROLES COMICS
HOW THE WORLD OUGHT TO WORK COMICS
HE SHE IT ALL MAKES NO SENSE COMICS

*censored to protect such individuals.. actually, to protect us.
okay okay okay now when do we draw these out?

http://scienceblogs.com/tetrapodzoology/2007/11/giraffe_vs_plane.php

i'm scanning this to minimize sorrows, but
...There's also the accidental death data I have on giraffes - you know, when they get struck by lightning, try to walk down slopes or get their necks caught in the forks of trees - and there's the whole issue of whether giraffes can swim or not...

what? WHAT? wowee

i accidentally made green tea at a ridiculous concentration and i just finished the cup. i expect to be stupid awake, whatever that means.

i want to draw, paint, sketch, colour, before i lose interest in appreciating the fact that every stroke and every line in nature are in ways divinely inspired; before i brush off the inklings i have of my life. i would say "and before the part of my brain that controls my hand atrophies", but i don't know man has it happened already?

commutes to/from school now seem at least 30% faster, because i've got two singing things plugged into my ears -- thanks, ipod touch. you probably already know this, but starfield is pretty okay!

i'm so messy and distracted
undisciplined and tactless
here on the inside

i thought age would tell the secrets
but the secrets are still secret
and the years are passing by

WERE YOU IN THE SAME SUNDAY SCHOOL CLASS AS ME?

here's a quote from the Picture of Dorian Gray*:
The only artists I have ever known who are personally delightful are bad artists. Good artists exist simply in what they make, and consequently are perfectly uninteresting in what they are. A great poet, a really great poet, is the most unpoetical of all creatures. but inferior poets are absolutely fascinating. They worse their rhymes are, the more picturesque they look. The mere fact of having published a book of second-rate sonnets makes a man quite irresistible. He lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realize.

*at least that's what i was told from creeping around the internet.

you guys, i make the worst puns in the world! what does that say about me?